never been more relieved to bleed
a phrase I keep repeating
funny how your greatest wish
so easily becomes your greatest fear
maybe funny is not the right word here
but it's what I have
the recurrence
first a cruel sign of failure
your body refusing
to function, to create meaning
then with time comes to be
the most welcome gift
a celebration
relief
assurance
you can remain whole
and not give away another piece of your soul
to someone else
© coldscars